Scared and weird..

Recently i found myself that i get attached to things unneccesarily , if those things change or some thing bad happens i feel really sad,crooky,crap weird :(


case 1: I almost cried when Harry potter characters,Hermoine went with Ron,instead with Harry,I always thought Harry was destined to be with hermoine,and i lost half the interest in the book series since then and i do still believe that harry is destined to be with hermoine.

case 2:
Similaryly, In series "How i met you mother" two of main characters(robin and ted) whom i like to c together,well they didnt bcome couple and one of them sleeps with some one else. dats it,dats the end of the story for me, am not gonna watch dat series again in my life.


I feel stupid and lame,insane for me to get attached to these things.i know these are just serials with no connection with life,but i get attached with my full conscience. Add to this,theres is one more dark secret..if there is too much suspense i just go to end of the novel and read the final chapter,same is with movies.

some times i do feel,this is insane stupid crazy feeling,which i shuld no more get attached,but its so damn hard to get rid this.some times i feel i should bang my head in the wall.

I try to hang on things which i shuld never get attached, and i am really scared of it.. what if some thing similar happens. i should somehow get guts to face it. I dont know why i hang on these things,basically i feel everything should end perfectly at the end..and real life is worst example of it and this scares me a lot..

Gosh i wis i could find some solution to it..

PS: Is there any chemical available to get rid of this other excess oxygen?

Exams

As i sit and mull over,
I asked why i came here,
Wonder, i feel like this
My Heart breaks in to pieces

Whenever i see a couple
The sinking jealous feeling
shows how fickle the mind is

Times come and goes by
thinking how come a stupid guy
end up with a stunning girl
makes the mind go in swirl

A I hear the murmers in my head
Letting all to go past ahead
I stay here ,declining to go
I stood here, refusing to grow

The sound of Ignominy haunts
The Pain of failure overpowers
the fragile mind in me...
What to do..??
I am just whom i wanted to be.

So many people ,with their minds
Right in the exam's fever grip
It is so hard to find,
a soul like me..

Monday 1:43 Am 12 May 2008

When the lights are gone,
When the world sleeps,
I am here Alone,
My heart cries

Where were you been
For all these Years,
I've been waiting for you
Waiting to see your Smile


For her,I will be for Her,Forever
Now I see my path out of the haze,
Love you till